Don’t Be Disillusioned—Life Isn’t Against You

Believe the best IS yet to come 💕

In exactly three months, I’ll board a flight to Ubud, Bali to launch my first book, An Inside Job, and host my very first retreat inspired by its teachings. It feels surreal to say that.

The past two years have been a deeply emotional and transformative journey. My life fell apart, and from the ashes, I had to rebuild myself piece by piece. I shed layer after layer of who I was told to be, and I won’t sugarcoat it: some days were unbearably dark. Like many empaths, I internalised my pain while continuing to help others. It felt easier to show up for them than to sit with myself.

But there came a turning point. A moment that quietly shifted everything. And from that moment on, I promised myself I’d never live from a place of numbness again. I’m deeply grateful every day to be here, walking this path and sharing it with you.

There was a time I truly believed I’d never finish this book. I didn’t think I would achieve anything, ever. I felt like a disappointment, not just to others, but to myself. But through writing An Inside Job, I began to see myself differently. I began to understand that I wasn’t a failure. I was a woman unraveling, healing, and becoming.

To me, success isn’t about what you achieve on the outside. It’s about honouring who you are on the inside. It’s about believing in your path, your voice, your intuition. That belief isn’t arrogance, it’s love. It's self-respect. It’s choosing to know and accept your whole self, flaws and all. When that love is real, external validation becomes a beautiful bonus, not a requirement.

I had to rediscover myself from the depths of the darkest place. Not the version I was raised to be. Not the one society told me I should be. But the “me” I dreamed of being when I was a little girl. I never wanted a title or a uniform, I just wanted to be free and happy. And those simple desires came from a childhood that was far from simple.

Freedom and happiness may feel impossible at times, but they aren’t. They’re just buried under years of conditioning and emotional debris. When we begin to unravel all we’ve been told to believe about ourselves, that’s when the real awakening begins.

And here’s what I’ve learned: healing isn’t always pretty. It’s not all peace signs and meditation. It’s tears, loneliness, grief, disappointment. It’s people leaving. It’s people staying, and loving you fiercely through your worst. It’s raw and real. And through it all, something inside you slowly, yet quietly, begins to shine.

Then one day—without warning or fanfare, you wake up and feel a stillness. A peace. You stop caring what others think, because you finally know what you think. You stand taller. You breathe deeper. You realise: this is life. This is your life and it’s yours to shape.

You begin to walk your own path. You cherish those who stayed. You open your heart to new souls who arrive. You bless those who left. And you finally understand—you’re exactly where you’re meant to be.

Life isn’t always kind. It can strip you bare. It can show you parts of yourself you didn’t know existed. But it can also offer you the sweetest peace. Life isn’t here to punish you, it’s here to wake you up. And when you get it... when you really understand it... life becomes full of blessings beyond what you ever imagined. Life is love. It is peace. And it is worth it.

The lessons I share in my book have changed me forever. There’s no going back. Like Maya Angelou said, “When you know better, you do better.”

I can’t wait to welcome you to the Journey of Finding Your True Self Retreat in Ubud this October (21st–28th, 2025). We’ll gather at the serene Pyramids of Chi, surrounded by nature, healing energy, sound journeys, and a circle of beautiful, like-minded souls. We will be holding space for you, but most of all, you will be holding space for yourself. That’s where the true magic happens.

And while we’re there, I’ll be officially launching my book 'An Inside Job – A Practical Guide to Finding Your True Self'. I still can't believe I'm saying that! I’m filled with joy and humility to finally share this with the world. You can order your copy now, maybe even as a Christmas gift for someone searching for deeper purpose:👉 Order here

So today, even though life has tested me in ways, I’m so grateful I stepped off the merry-go-round of survival and chose to live awake. It was the hardest decision I ever made and the best.

Feel the fear, and do it anyway. You deserve the life your heart dreams of.

Thank you for walking this path with me. Your presence is a gift I treasure.

With love,

Rose ❤️